i cant help it but to feel it this way. it's never my share. it's never us anymore. with **, it seems that the 4 of us isnt there anymore. in heart it's terrible and upset. with the starings and wantings, the feel doesnt return. emotions tinge my life. i have been living positively for the past 1 week plus. everyday smiling, motivaing myself, encouraging myself, giving myself the best comfort. i believe there's more to come. 抢梅魁-LIKE A ROSE; falling.