oh shit! i haven been sleeping well for the past 3 days. thanks to the freaking incident. oh crap! now i closed my eyes, i remembered everything he does to me. oh damn! i need to replenish my great sleep but it seems that, it's the best that i can sleep. i shall try to sleep early tonight :B yesterday evening was really terrible for me. i freaked out till i cried. definitely i dont have mood for anything. so rubbish. HuiYing, Pris, Nadz, Sasi, Farhan; started to give me comfort & told me to chill. my hands went cold, my heart beat was pumping fast & etc... following me around SR just to talk to me personally & then even get Farhan to get me to him! a 33 yr old coward! hello come on small boy! face up with YOUR mistakes & stay faithful to your wife. your wife was right to come to QUEST. serves you right! i told Farhan with a stern face that i dont want to know, i dont wish to know & i dont want to be involved! Nadz also told me not to go over, just stay with them. i pulled JJ downstairs when i saw him coming back from gents. he calmed me down & stuff. & then i came to know about the idiot contradicting stories. & yucks! this fucking bastard tells lies! endless of fairy tales. eee! i'm freaking digusted! when i went back up, HuiYing told me what he said. i was just listening & when i heard that he wants to apologise, i was thinking, ' does sorry really helps?'. not that i dont accept his apology but he really deserve it! i know i'm unforgiving this time as i really cant be soft-hearted to him this time! the fucking bitch irks me! i cant take it when she's near me & stuff. i feel dirty when she's walking past me. eee!!! fucking bitch! i wouldnt want your darling! i'm not like you. i respect his family & stuff. even he's the 1 that wants it, can you just use your basic common sense & leave him. i cant believed ya a muslim. a big disgrace to muslim! yucks! around 7+ left with them as a big group. supposed to meet Coli, Mabel & Bert for dinner but i didnt turned up; my mood wasnt right for them. i miss you girls! B: next time we shall meet up! my eyes are freaking tire now. oh damn! i wanna sleep more but is there any way that i can drown myself with sleep?

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