i returned you part of our love token because i am extremely tire of our conflict. my first time, i could on for so long, not feeling tire. i definitely now feel tire. it meant to talk things out with you tonight but i couldnt. i was actually very reluctant to turn up tonight but i told myself for us, it's all worth it. tonight i really wanna have heart-to-heart talk with you but things didnt turn out smoothly as i expected. what pissed me off just now was the word 'SORRY'. i really hate your 'SORRY'. whenever you thought you made me upset or angry, 'SORRY' will just come instead of we talk things out to prevent it from happening. whenever i hear your 'SORRY', i will just blow off my top. i find it no point of you apologizing when it happens AGAIN & AGAIN. its big gap between us now? dont you feel a X factor is blocking us? i dont know. its true. i lost sense of security but does it really matters? if you can sense, i have been trying my best to maximise our communication time but it always turn out to be a quarrel or conflict. if you were me would you feel tire? for eg that day, i massaged you to come online because it's been days since we really sit down & talk, agree? tonight i actually planned to end all our shits but... i trying indirectly to help us but it just dont work but instead we move even further & further steps away from each other. i know i easily gets impatient nowadays; i dont know what comes into me too. or maybe my patience has been drained out? i dont know too. most importantly, i dont feel your heart with me now.