Kidnap my heart.

Thursday, 8 March 20076:27:00 pm

gosh! i'm back to medication once again! i really really hate it!!! taking the same bloody medicine for 3 times which each time lasted me around a month?! I'M SICKED OF MEDICATION! i just feel like dumping it into the bin now but i got no chioce to take it! *sigh* DARLING is so nice! he rushed from YISHUN to NSC to accompany me. i think if DARL wasnt by side yesterday, my patience really gets used up. DARL so sweet! he was making me laugh througout. believe it anot?! both of us waited like around 2 hours in total in NSC! DARL really has the great patience to wait on with me. 18 APRIL; 3.35pm is my next appointment. then we went to NOVEA SQUARE & walked walked, then went to TPY. i mentioned to DARLING said i wanna pierce my ear bone soon but my dream was perished; DARLING disallowed me to do it. i know he is doing for my own good so i shall listened to him, be his good girl. we ate dinner at TPY; ate same food! then we walked here & there; walked everywhere. [[XIA SI REN.SG]] saw 2 of his friends. i feel very pai seh; dont ask me why too. maybe kinda of unprepared? last night when i reached home, i was so shocked. i need to return about 3 calls? so many people were looking for me. need to help so many people. kinda of stressed up last night. the moment i stepped in my room, i was a little seh already. then 11+, i was yearning for my bed so i decided to turn in at the same time with DARL. woke up around 5+; was lazing, to lazy to get up, so i missed call DARL then mssaged him. he that pig! *sigh* purposely reach school around 7.10 am. purposely dont wanna go school early but still not late. C= PE period was throwing javelin then wanted to play netball but DA JIE, JEAN & JIA LING wanted to blade so i accompany them. spent some time & effort to teach them blading. i was blading way happily then messaging DARL. MR FONG was so bad! he kept disturbing, cursing me to fall. isnt he bad?! then social studies was so sianx! i almost fall asleep! then around 10 am, I TOOK MY MEDICINE! the class was testing MS HIDAYAH's patience today by throwing bottle cap again. then last 15 mins, i fell asleep when she was going through INDUSTRIAL. unknowingly, i fell asleep. then recess went to find CAI. she looked at me 'why you like so seh de?' think i was extremely seh! then she told me chinese period go her class settle stuff so i agreed. MR TAN agreed that i could skipped his lesson so i went to 3EB class. didnt know this case invloved so many gossipers. 1 thing that really dissappoints me was AISAH bucked up with RUZAINI to threaten us. how far off could they get?! AISAH said this 'i would rathe die!' i know i was kinda off as i raised a little of my voice at AISAH but she really wasnt in mind. MS FUD also gave her bad thrashing & MS FUD almost slapped her as her attitude was really bad. MS FUD was quite worked up. i too, admit that my emotions was unstable. as i was walking back to class, i felt tears for it. it was MR ZAINAL's period & he came in late. i know he wasnt in the mood today too. i was just looking out of the window panel & shedding tears away so i asked for permission to got toilet to cool down. MR ZAINAL was irritating, he kept asking what happened so i was being persistent 'I WANT TO GO TOILET!'. at lasti was given green light. when i came back, he was going through textbook. i totally wasnt in the mood so i closed the book & looked out of the window panel. after he finished going through, he gave us OTOT. he wants the class to be extremely quiet so he came up with tha hang man thing again. then suddenly MR ZAINAL came to my table as he wants to see me outside. the whole class watched his actions carefully; i followed him out. he asked me' what happened?!', 'why suddenly you like this?!' i explained & told him everything. my eyes just went teary. i know MR ZAINAL really sensed my tireness in me. he gave me as assurance that if something happens again, he would take action. in anycase it doesnt matter too. if something really happens next, i think i will break down lying in hospital. i just feel like skipping school tomorrow & just lie on a bed to really rest myself. while sobbing in school, suddenly this 'X factor' or maybe a guilt towards DARL just came. somehow i knew he was the right guy for me. my MR RIGHT. i know i shouldnt rants to him about RUZAINI but i still did. he didnt even mind & would always be patience to listen to my story. he also never once flared up at me. i'm extremely touched. when i told CAI this in the afternoon; she replied this '1 sentence, he's nice. really very nice!' in heart, i know he's very nice & he's the 1 for me. how can any guy like him take it? ranting up your ex... *speechless* got to email GOR later. 'GOR! read must not xia dao! MEI is still strong. still can handle. i didnt forget our promised. i remembered it! you got to take care too!' QUEENIE JIE! get well soon. we must enjoy our holidays. faster get well! BUDDHA BLESS YOU. [SADHU-SADHU-SADHU]] KAR YI! know it's kinda of tough for you but you got to hang on! i know w/o a PS is really terrible. i can understand how you feel. i'm here for you. here & always will. C= DARL! dont anxious! dont need scarce, okay? you will do well. have faith & confidence in yourself, okay? 我答应你,我们会生生世世.

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