Monday, 8 January 20075:50:00 pm
i finally understood how i felt. after the recent relationship ended, i didnt really sort out my thoughts for relationship & the word TRUST. now i know what's really holding me back after reading the newspaper article & hearing some stuff.my past relationships had guys lying & because of their lies & the trust cant build up again.the trust that i have in a friendship & relationship is different. at least friends seldom tell lies. then when couples sharing a great chemistry before going steady, guys are totally different to the girls but after steady things changes to bad. why guys lie? SI JIE is right! some facts are better to be kept unknown but i still chose to know. just like i wanna know what's my parent's real story. maybe i have this curiosity in me that i wanna find out the truth? somehow relationships to me isnt about chemistry only but something else too. me myself also dont know what's that something else. to accept a relationships now, i need deep thoughts. time being i will not accept any relationships!
i'm waiting for my xiao wang ji but i dont know whether i still can hold on. hope ya still all right after training. *yawn* kinda of tire now. didnt reply the message for more thn 6 hours & i think you made it. maybe you should be awarded. shall have the verdict after talking to you! =B
i had a solemn & peace mood since after i reached from school. C=
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